January 30, 2012

In Memory of Caleb Cowan Buck 2/3/98- 1/24/12

I was introduced to Caleb, I believe, in August this past year when my friend Adam brought him over before a football game one night. We hung out and talked, us and a few friends. He was super awesome and funny and adorable. Just a really cool guy. I didn't see him again after that until the Collard Festival in  early September where we ran into each other again and hung out for the day there.

I hadn't seen him since then and I've only talked to him a couple times.
Last Tuesday I found out from friends that the previous day he decided to hang himself because he was being picked on a lot by kids at school and stuff. People saying he was gay or stupid stuff like that that made him believe that his life wasn't worth living anymore.


His family found him and took him to the hospital where he was in a coma for about a day. He came out of it, still unresponsive. The doctors gave him 2 days to live. His brain was swelling and there was a VERY slim chance that he would make it in any stable conditions. So they took him off of life support Tuesday afternoon.

I only met him a couple times but he was so awesome. It was really hard for me to lose someone like that. I have never really lost anyone that I was friends with like that. I spent a lot of time crying. 

It was definitely not an easy thing to go through, and I can only imagine what his family was/is going through.
Me and Gina went to the viewing on Saturday and hugged a bunch of people and cried some more. He looked so different laying in the casket. I didn't expect him to look like that. outside of the room they had a slideshow of pictures from different times of his life playing on a computer with music in the backround. It was really sweet and I stood there and cried as I watched his smile light up the screen. 

Farewell Caleb.
You are sorely missed.
Hope to see you again someday.

<3 Your friend, 
Jasmine Libby


2 comments:

  1. I knew Caleb back when we were in 4th grade together, he moved away before we started 5th grade together, and even though its a couple of months late, we just found out. Caleb was a good friend back to us down here in Florida, and we never forgot about him. I'm glad he had friends like you who loved him for who he was.

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  2. I had known Caleb since I was in fourth grade. He died when I was in Seventh. He lived on my block and his little brother was my little brother's best friend. He came over often, I saw him often. I loved, no, I LOVE Caleb. I always had. He was the sweetest person I have ever known. But the thing is... It wasn't that people picked on him. EVERYONE LOVED HIM. It only happened after he moved back in with his parents. For the first time in my life, I cried from someone's death. I had witnesses death before, and have witnessed it after. But that one time was different. He had done nothing wrong. I didn't understand why he was being taken away from me. I didn't understand. I still don't understand. At his funeral, I saw his suit. He was the first boy I had ever danced with before. ... wearing that same suit. And I felt so bad. I wanted pills, I wanted pain killers right then. They didn't help. They didn't help at all. I was so lost. I was so confused. I didn't know what to do. He was so close to perfect! Why? Seven is not middle-aged. I cried. I died a bit. When he left, he took a piece of me with him. And never. I will never forget him. Rest easy, Caleb. I'm watching Aiden and Trevor for you.

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